I do believe in God, but I also believe that it’s not his will to do the work for us. We must push forward, he’s just the guide or the one with the extra Humph or the one that says ‘not this time’ and steps back. Whatever part he plays, we will rarely know. Regardless, Snoopy I just want peace in my heart. he knows my life and my heart. I’m not bound to him by any religion, just by heart and soul!
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So, having said that, right now I don’t think it’s gonna work out. I think it’ll be different when she sees us in her children. And I’ve told her that. I told her to remember this when you tell your children that they only have each other. She laughed at me. That’s exactly how I feel, also. When we were really young, Snoopy I just want peace in my heart. my dad and his brother fell out with each other because of his new wife. He and I had a great relationship and I felt that loss long into adulthood, even though he never really rejected me, just separated himself. Here we are and I’ve put up with everything to be a part of her life, their life, and she doesn’t want to spend time with me nor wants her children to.
Because of cleaning or whatever else she wants them to do. I’ve asked for once a month and she can’t commit to that. I’ve told her send laundry with them, she won’t do that. Send whatever chores or homework… She basically wants the same relationship I have with a friend of mine that lives 600 miles away and she only lives 3 miles away. Her children ask me why we can’t spend more time together. What do I say??? She tells them I don’t have time when she knows very well that I would drop everything for them and my current and only boyfriend since they were born has absolutely no problems with that. However, she has taken to letting them stay with people that had nothing to do with their upbringing.
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If all I did was fun stuff and spoiled them, I would understand, kinda, but they get love and discipline at my house, they get to learn things with me. I’m not just about taking them places and spoiling them. I just don’t understand and never will. She should feel quite lucky, I think, or at least love that she has someone to help, that will treat them like her own, Co parent even though they aren’t mine, etc, etc. I think she’s jealous and doesn’t wanna share them at all. Whatever, her problem, but she should’ve thought of that before she let us create such a bond with each other, if all she really wanted was a separate relationship. Now I’m just venting. I’m mad, I’m sad… I’m struggling with myself to keep it together. Every minute. Thank you for all your thoughts, words, prayers!!!